Remember When.

Remember when everything was new and exciting? Remember all of those times where you had to get out and meet new people, do new things, and enjoy new experiences? I miss those times. The same old cliche world we live in as grow older gets less and less new it seems like... everything new has come and gone and now I feel I am sitting on a flat rock until something new comes along.... waiting patiently. Day by day I go through a basic routine that I have trained myself into so well that if one little thing gets messed up, my whole day seems out of whack.

I miss the days when I was six, when my only major concern was who I was going to be "best friends" with that day, or who was going to share their M&Ms at lunch, or who was going to be my coloring partner. Those days were certainly taken for granted, but how was I supposed to know that it would only get harder, that little Suzy didn't like me using the purple marker first was not going to be my biggest problem? Life seems to just fly on by, I've learned to strap in tight and enjoy the ride as long as I live, but lately it's becoming a bit of a struggle. I am about to leave home and everything built around my life in a small town will no longer exist when I go. Sure, it'll be there when I get back or visit, but will I feel the same? Will I even care about those little things that mean so much to me now later?

I am definitely a person who likes change and I cannot stand being in one spot in my life for too long, but now I feel like because I have had that attitude through life for so long that I might miss something huge, or that I won't be there when something great happens because I'll be off doing something else. I will miss a lot of people, and even though I know they will be okay here without me, I feel like I may have failed to do what I was called to do in their lives while I was there.... however, now I have learned the lesson to never take a moment for granted to do what it takes to do what I need to do.

The events that teach us lessons everyday are mind boggling sometimes...everything I go through daily has meaning behind it, and the weird thing about me is that each night before I go to bed, I learn something new. I never go to bed unsure of the events that happened throughout my busy day, everything has a reason...and I am always determined to find out that reason.

Remember at the beginning of this post how I said remember the past? Remember how I said later that you shouldn't take for granted the little moments/things in life? Well, now I want all of you to remember this, everyday has purpose....every morning you wake up, there is a reason, everytime you go to bed for rest, rest well because the next day could be even harder. However, your purpose in life is important, so strap in tight, put on your helmet, maybe even grab a first aid kit because this world gets bumpy, the events become challenging, and the struggles you face will at times seem unbareable, but you can do it... so can I.

"Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had. No one lives forever." -unknown.