who knew...a look inside my brain

who knew this world could be so wonderful, cold, inviting, backstabbing, life changing, soul moving, heart warming, and lonely at times. These are just a few of my thoughts at the moment... but as i lay here trying to figure what it is exactly that i'm really trying to concentrate on... i have more and more random thoughts... like right now... even though its not...i like to pretend my life is a movie... daily i feel like i'm starring in my own reality series... my life...lol... yeah... it's an interesting thought... some people say that when they read my writing they think i have add or i'm on some kind of drug.. but i'm not. my mind just likes to go crazy sometimes... i'm just one of the few people who aren't afraid to show it and let these thoughts flow onto paper... sometimes when i'm laying down and i can't find sleep...i just hink... think of everything there is to think about.. sometimes it's about people i miss, people i like, people i dislike, places i want to go, things i want to do...etc... it's funny how life can make the brain start to really get to work with all these crazy thoughts.... i could type for hours... just about nothing or everything.. mostly my thoughts are what i like to type there are very rare occassions when i type beause i have to ... well i guess that's all i'm going to share... but... im gonna get some shut eye

Say You'll Stay

Moments pass too quickly, we can’t stop time

I’m not ready to quit, don’t let go

This lifetime is only the first step to our eternity

Remember if you let go, there is no return

(All you have is a memory- all I have is a memory)

For now, stay with me until I fall asleep

Stay with me until I wake, then keep dreaming with me

Hold my hand, I’ll hold yours, keep me close

Stay with me until I fall asleep, say you’ll stay

If you leave before I wake I’ll know it wasn’t meant to be

It’s our faith that will hold us together…believe with me

There’s a world out there, tough to handle

But if you offer, I’ll follow

Fast forward to a lifetime of love

Stay with me until I fall asleep, forgive me for asking…

There’s a world out there tough to handle

We never have to leave.

~Kyla Marie Edmondson

onto a new experience...

Have you done something for so long that it just gets tiring and boring eventually making you want to quit? I have had that frustration with multiple things in my life...

If you noticed, I haven't posted anything new in quite a few months...that is because life took me by the hand and decided to fill my plate with so much I could hardly carry it all...

However, I don't want anyone to think I got bored or tired of writing. Blogging is something that, believe it or not, takes time and thought to piece together a good story. Over the past few months, believe me I've been through enough to write a book, however... I decided to try something new.

Rather than blogging about day to day feelings, events, etc. I want to blog to escape my day to day life. It may be interesting to see the things that end up coming out on paper, but I am curious to see what will happen.

I hope this will bring out something new in me, kind of like a self discovery exercise, and kind of like a way to figure out some questions running through my head.

If you don't always understand what I mean in some of my writing, just ask...I've had a few people email me and ask what certain things meant and it definitely cleared up some things.

Well...here goes nothing... onto a new experience :)

Dr Pepper Experience :)

Ciao everyone! So I recently got back on campus from the most exciting weekend of my life! Dr Pepper invited me and four other students to attend the SEC Championship weekend on them. It was so intense and emotional from day one. Below you will see a video that highlights every event from the weekend. Hope you enjoy! Don't forget to submit your video at www.drpepper.com/promotions!!!

sad song, happy memories

Im sitting in my dorm room right now thinking of many different things, from cheerleading to home life, etc. I am listening to every kind of music anybody could ever think of and each song has brought back a different memory...specifically the sad songs. Each sad song I hear reminds me of my past, which makes me happy in a weird way. Every time I hear a song that was affiliated with a certain friend, relationship, situation, whatever it may be I smile. I've grown to learn that memories are memories, whether they are good or bad. A memory is a wonderful gift from God. Every memory is special in it's own way and finds a unique way to your heart.

Songs have a certain connection with everyones life. Each song associated with a memory has lyrics that touch us all in ways that may differ from others. Lyrics often reflect a situation that many people can relate with therefore we all seem to find a connection with the people involved in the memory even if we can't really see them in life anymore. I love that. I love that God has given us the gift of memories to help us feel close to those we lost even if we don't see them anymore.

"Memories are worth a million words, the pictures only bring them to surface"- Kyla Edmondson

rearview mirror

So as many of you know I am a college freshman and most people know how scary it can be to start a new life separate from family and old friends. I am currently in my dorm room it's about 12:10 a.m. and I just got in from a meeting for the cheerleaders, its safe to say my day was very long! So far things have been crazy, moving in, getting settled, figuring out different things to do on campus, finding a good church, etc. The feeling I get on campus, however, is very home-like. I know where things are, everyone here is so nice, and the vibe I get just walking around is very comfortable.

Well as lame as this blog may seem to some of you, I need to actually hit the sheets for some shut eye. There is so much more I could talk about but I guess you could say, a picture is worth a thousand words...

Take a look...

On my own

I just today finished a wonderful bible study with an amazing group of girls... Wow, what a life changing impact it has had on me. Life seems to always have the constant question pushed on each one of us... who am I, and what is MY purpose? This study created by Beth Moore (a very inspirational woman) has shown me the direction that I am supposed to go with my life. Everything we learned within this one study has made a difference in who I am, and how I want to live out my life.

One thing I learned is that EVERYBODY struggles, each of us in a different way. I cannot even begin to tell you the countless amount of times I've messed up or struggled with something so difficult that it almost took over my whole life. I learned that, even though there are always going to be struggles, that everything is going to be okay while I am in the hands of Christ. He is the answer to every problem..He is the one that can change anything and everything... all I have to do is ask. I wish more people could have experienced this insane turn of character and change of mind that I and the other girls in the study did. We all have a bond beyond words and I hope that EVERYONE has the chance to do something so magnificent.

Over the course of the next two weeks I will be experiencing a lot of change. I leave for college NEXT FRIDAY!!! How insane! I can't wait for the new friendships, lifestyle, challenges, experiences, and all that comes with being in college, but I know that I am going to have trials before I go. Taking a leave from work, leaving old friends behind, saying goodbyes to people I may never even see again after this week, it is all going to be hard to do, but I know that in our own ways, we will all be alright. Jesus has control no matter what, He will always lead me where I need to go, sometimes following will be harder than others, but I trust His plan for me.

Today was an excellent day...everything seemed to go RIGHT. I had a wonderful day spending time with old friends from high school, I got a job I've been dying to get, I spent time with many wonderful people, and I found out my roommate is the one I requested! YAY! I just hope that tomorrow will be just as good as today.

Life is good. Trials are hard. The reward, is priceless. :)

"If you hear a voice within you say "you cannot paint," then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced."  ~Vincent Van Gogh